Sometimes we feel like everything we try to do...or not do...is not good enough. And it is times like this that I try to turn my perspective around so I can understand why I feel this way. Am I truly a failure in everything? Lately it is feeling like a failure in how I manage my time. I haven't had the motivation to do much around the house or with my schooling. I guess it has finally clicked in my head that my DH is really gone for 2 months. I am in that "funk" and am trying to escape it...quickly! I knew this would happen, it always does...when he leaves. So what am I going to do about it?
I am thinking back on what I've done today and how bad really was my time management?
0715: Get out of bed, start laundry, take care of dog's needs
0730: Workout on treadmill
0815: Take shower
0830: Feed and dress kids
0850: Drive KJ to school
1000: Go Visiting Teaching
1130: Eat lunch
1200: Watch an episode of Care Bears with Connor, snuggle up to some books and put him down for a nap
1300: Blog, start to study my school work, text my DH to see how his day has been going
Seems like a pretty productive day so far. Complete 180 of what my day was on Monday -- of just lounging on the couch and watching episodes on hulu.com all day, missing my DH. I can at least see that I am changing. And that is the point! I think I have my hubby and my loving Heavenly Father to thank for that. I was praying that I could get out of this funk, that I could find some motivation to just get up and do something...anything! My DH was texting me and for a couple days, hounding me if I had touched my school work at all. Finally, yesterday I told him I was thinking about doing that after the kids went down instead of watching episodes....and I did! I studied for a few hours reading 1/2 my chapter and making an outline for it.
It feels so good to be learning and studying again. I know I can always count on my HF answering my prayers when I need them and also for my DH to be one who pushes me so that I can reach my full potential.
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